Like I said earlier, the term codependency really pissed me off. Even still after realizing that it is something that I certainly struggle with, and that I readily and finally admit that I exude. (in fact they gave me a whole new understanding of myself that was super liberating.) in my research I came across…

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I walk through the garden alone where the dew is still on the roses… After a couple of days of pondering, I’ve come to a place that feels like a developing cocoon, beginning to realize the depth of which I will be journeying in the following unprescribed amount of time in therapy.  A question was…

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It’s unlike anything I’ve ever done before.  It’s hard to describe.  It was hard. I sat down, we discussed my starting point – one of the most painful memories – a quote from my mother after first being molested by her boyfriend’s son, “If it happens again honey, let me know.”  This was the moment,…

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I’ve been reasoning that if I play it cool, being open to all this, magical things will happen.  It’s started.  Life in general has started over again and I’m seeing more clearly.  Things are falling into place and I am grasping ahold of something solid within myself.  Here’s to that.  Here’s to the learning and…

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If I stay like this Maybe I’ll disappear Maybe this isn’t real It’s been so long, these few seconds If I can find you I promise I’ll care for you Please don’t hide too well Because I’ll need help In my delicate search There’s so much to tell You can step on this body I…

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Well, today was also a continuation of preliminaries. (again thank you for the candles and well wishes.) Today I took a test on potential dissociative behavior. I had to answer about 15 to 20 questions related to how much I check out in terms of daily life. She asked me questions about when I’m driving do…

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