I awoke
always first, sustenance to the little loved one
next a quiet moment
stillness
She purrs in contentment
coffee glides down like liquid love
Thanks be to time
which gifted these moments
Findings and workings of history
gave us right now
Grateful
Breathing
Morning sentiments
When I see things like: If you were born in the US or Canada, you were born with a “winning lottery ticket”, I automatically assume that person is either white, rich and white, or just rich and without realizing their painting with a DAMN broad brush… I came across as site like this today and usually I do not post in “the comments” section – but today, I lost my ability to refrain. The page upon which I landed (Link right below)(I’m always checking out self-help pages and gaining inspiration for my own creative ways of healing old shit) did not fit my bill.
After reading this and most of the comments, becoming more and more uncomfortable and irritated, I felt the urge to write something. I didn’t read anything of the sort in any of the other comments. (Maybe it was stated prior in a comment I scrolled through toward the bottom.) Here’s what I posted (it’s being reviewed right now, I wonder if the moderator will let it be posted? Maybe? Who knows.). All that said, Some may think of my ideas here as a poo-poo on “positive self-transformation” but that brand simply isn’t for me.
It is very important to remember this: even though some have “won the lottery” in the US and Canada, there are those who were born here who did not win any such lottery. Similar to the person from Iran, we do not have freedom of speech to the degree in which everyone believes. We do not have lawmakers who represent the interests of the people, they work for those who pay for their campaigns. We do not have freedom to be Black and feel safe driving in your car. We do not all have the blessing of having what we need to eat, nourishing food in our bellies and for our children.
The concept that we have won the lottery (the broad stroke painted here) creates the illusion that it’s all good here, when, for marginalized groups and the poor, the chances of “climbing” outside of your class and out of poverty are slim to none. “4 percent of children from low-income families achieved a college education, compared to 45 percent of children from higher-income families.” – (https://www.newsweek.com/why-rich-stay-rich-and-poor-stay-poor-363611)
And , starting on page 10 and on into page 11 – https://www.bostonfed.org/inequality2014/papers/reeves-sawhill.pdf – “Half the black children born into the bottom quintile remain there in adulthood, compared to just one in four whites. Only 3 percent join the top income quintile, implying that a real-life “rags to riches” story is unlikely for black children.
Moreover, unlike white children and the population as a whole, black children with
middle-class roots are more likely to fall than to rise. Of black children born to parents in the middle income quintile, only 14 percent move upward in the distribution, 37 percent remain 14 middle class, and 69 percent move downward. The equivalent breakdown in the white distribution is 44 percent, 23 percent, and 34 percent, respectively.”
https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/wonk/wp/2014/10/18/poor-kids-who-do-everything-right-dont-do-better-than-rich-kids-who-do-everything-wrong/All this is to say, that if we congratulate ourselves, without acknowledging the SYSTEMs of protections for some people vs. others, in terms of the proverbial “lottery ticket”, then we are doing a tremendous disservice to ourselves and an even more tremendous disservice and even HARM to those who do not share those winning tickets – THOSE WHO ARE LIKELY your neighbors. Their circumstances, WHERE THEY WERE BORN was not their choice, are most certainly the fate to which they are bestowed. There are still people eating out of the garbage and women who do not feel safe at work, even in the US and UK – however, it’s more hidden and the disparities are swept under the rug (or a 15 second soundbite on the news) to maintain the idea that the “American Dream” or whatever you call it in Canada, is available to everyone, when clearly it is not.
Pontification over for today. JEEZ LOUISE!
Alone in my thoughts
without you
The river rose above its banks
as the rain in the night passed by
prints from night animals
and driftwood
still fresh where they lie
I remembered Your enchanting smile
and mountainous heart
distant
memories to me now
The black-capped chickadee and cardinal
as captivating to me
as fire to a cold wanderer
My heart warms with the thought of you
And I move on
Like you did
Like the still raging river
Tonight, a dear friend shared an inspiring Instagram post about a woman whose scars created hurdles and ultimately a sense of self beyond traditional beauty ideals. I found it to be so touching, I was immediately inspired to create. What came from Spirit was this message — Our inner strengths, our Spirit guidance and our Foundational support can lead us and hold us in times of shame, questioning and self-doubt. Here’s to all of you out there who have visible and invisible scars. I honor you and share this visioning spread to dig deeper into your understanding and embodiment of the beauty that IS you, not just an idea WITHIN your mind.
Bless you all, dear beauties.
So it be.
I posted the maximum word count on Insta. This is the full-deal. It is my hope to share this with for the highest good for all.
1. Your Foundation – This, the most integral part of any structure, holds you steady. You can use the lessons of this card to build your strongest foundation in self-identity and courage to be your own dang self.
2. Inner Strengths – You may or may not be aware of your inner strength. You probably have MANY. This placement holds for you a key. This key opens the door, helps you tap in and gives you insight: Who is that badass living inside you? The one who’s so excited you’ve chosen to rock this boat.
3. Physical Embodiment – Now that you’ve built your base and fortified it with your inner strength(s), it is time for embodiment. This placement gives you the reigns to direct your physical self and begin. Isn’t that always the hardest part? It is time dearie!! It is time to physically give love to what has been neglected. Take that hot bath. Take that long walk. Take that action step that starts you on this path of physically telling your body that you mean business and hold your beautiful head high.
4. Emotional Support – OKAY! You have given your material self some needed gifts, now is time to feel them. This placement will show you how to truly appreciate this journey of bearing your scars with grace and love, gratitude and forgiveness. Every scar you carry is an integral part of who you are at this very moment. Use this card’s energy to direct your feelings toward self-love, not just self-acceptance. Kiss your scars with love! Cradle them in your hands and look at them as the precious gifts they are.
5. Your Burning Desire – What do you want? No, for real, like what do you pine for? What is your heart truly yearning for, now that you feel the love and bear your scars with gratitude? This placement will send you on your way. This card’s energy can guide your toward your first steps or give you the green light needed to go get that thing! This card is your permission to want it and go get it.
6. Mental Focus – You may wonder why this is almost last. There’s a damn reason. How many of us get caught up in our thoughts before we begin and then never begin? How many of us simply can’t see past the self-limiting thoughts in our minds. This spread says eff that. That’s why the mental focus is at the end. You have to feel what you want before you can see it. You have to begin the journey like the fool without thinking, just go. Now that you have gone through the steps and begin, get your head right. Think of those scars. How did you get them? How can they move you toward your burning desire? How can you put the shame away? What do you need to tell yourself to continue to feel that cradling and compassion of your formative experiences, those from which you bear scars? This placement helps you create those mantras and that clarity you seek to maintain your path, to Bear those Scars with a sense of pride and acknowledgement of their integral place in your life, but no longer holding you back from going after your life with fervor.
7. Spirit Guidance – Like the Chakra system, the number Seven invites you to lean into your Spirit guidance, in whatever way you choose. You have laid the ground work and now it is time for faith. Not only faith in yourself, but faith that the Universe has your back. Feel the hand of pure Love at your back. Feel your own hands of pure love cradling you in this journey. Know you are loved and you are not alone. Look in the mirror and say “I love you.”. Say it until you believe it. This card’s energy can give you the power.
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Some thing is hitting me hard. I can’t even see it. 1000 lightning strikes in my fingertips; 1000 floods in my heart.
Something has been buried, but I never got to go to the funeral. 1000 memories stuffed in synapses in my mind. 1000 miles I would have walked if I’d known I’d get to say goodbye.
Something inside is throbbing, not just the daily aches and pains, remorse and regret, creeping feelings. Thousands of them, swimming, then nothing’s left.
Something needs to be felt, not figured out. 1000 changes, 1000 wind chimes to signal when it changes direction.
